Tuesday, December 14, 2021

I'm going to get better

 Anorexia

I’m tired of your lies

I’m tired of your life

I’m tired of obeying you and conforming to your ties. 


I’m tired of your false promises, 

They take more from me each day. 

I’m tired of your threats and anger 

And tired of your constant dismay. 


I want to turn to you and say shut up

But I am still scared

Why though? What can you do?

The damage you have already reaped I fear cannot be repaired. 


I want to be free, I want to be Fiona

I want to find a way of living in this world 

I want to be at liberty to discover 

Who Fiona is and what she likes

What she wants and her forsights. 

I want to experience the world without anxiety and fear

Perpetuated by your insatiable requests and demands

Without wanting to disappear. 


I know this won’t be easy and

You’ll try to make me feel bad

But I’ll hold the people who love me close and remind myself

It’s a good thing when you’re mad. 

It means I’m moving away from you

It means I’m winning. 

And that is the ultimate goal now,

It’s time for us to reach out ending.

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