Monday, November 6, 2017

You win. - poem

The claws tighten 
My vision is blurred
I’m loosing my grip on reality
Your demands were once absurd
But now they seem normal
Because not eating is fine
And running when my legs shake
When my body screams stop
And my heart aches 
You still press on
‘Just a little more’ 
I try to appease, I can’t remember what for. 

I look in the mirror
And at my body
It seems to be growing, 
Expanding by the second
Even though the number goes down
Your calls beckon. 

My eyes are tired 
My body aches 
And you applaud me
For lowering my intake. 
My mind narrows 
Nothing matters anymore 
Apart from shrinking down
The number falling
The clothes hanging looser
My minds shut down. 

Exhaustion overwhelms me 
I can’t do this again
So I resign. 
You win. 



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